Sin

I was brought up for some of my life as a Jehovah’s Witness, but found the lifestyle and the whole issue of organised religion too restrictive so left. I have always been attracted to girls but felt as though it was sinful in some way. I read the book and saw the dramatisation of ‘Oranges are not the Only Fruit’ by Jeanette Winterson and this poem is based on both my own experiences and inspired by the book.

WARNING: EXPLICIT AND RELIGIOUS CONTENT

Just
Two young girls
Our sixteen years
Serving Jesus
Sanctimonious
Sacrificial years
Saving our sorrowful
Souls
Unblemished
With the scourge
Of sin?

So why
When I look at you
With my
Heathen, profane eyes
Does my bursting heart
Beat
To the rhythm
Of the Revelation Beast?
Does my mind
Obsess
With wicked thoughts of
Sinful things
Are we less than less?

My sacred sexuality
Comes alive
And my heart
Praises the wanton, fallen
Angels
That are us
We hide our
Youthful kisses
Stolen in the
Echoes of
Iniquity
Lips tell tales
Of lust
And we touch
Down there
And I don’t
Fucking care
If God
Strikes me down
For I lay down
On a bed of bliss
with
A Goddess

And when our
Bodies dance wildly
With the scourge
Of the conniving devil
And our sweet juices
Flow like
Golden nectar
From heaven
And our hearts
Are euphoric oceans
And our love
Is an immense universe
Just for two
How can this
Be sin?
How can this
Be sin?

©2020 Sarah Drury

Pistachio

WARNING: EXPLICIT

And the pistachio
Ice cream
Suits your
Raspberry sorbet
Lips
Frosted
Tongues dipped in
Winter
Kisses
Souls dipped in
Summer
Fucks

And it
Suits your
Watermelon
Wet dream
Breasts
Succulent
Rosebud nipples
Cascading aqua vitae
On the plateaus
Of my
Predator tongue
As I languish
In a hazy daze
Of fuck me
Probability

And as I lustfully
Lap up the
Errant dairy
From your chest
Like a hungry babe
Fed at the breast
My fingers
Wander to your
Pistachio lips
And as you
Lick the last
Remnants
Of our erotic
Musings
I thank
God
For Italy

©2020 Sarah Drury

Let me Fuck You Like I Do in My Dreams

WARNING!!! EXPLICIT CONTENT!!!

I wrote this about a woman i fell in love with two years ago yet it wasn’t meant to be and we never even got to have a relationship, let alone make love.

One day honey
One day
When the world is ours
And time is ours
And none of this fucked up shit is ours
Let me fuck you
Slowly
With tenderness
Let your alabaster flesh
Play a mirage
Upon my besotted eyes
And your hush-hush longing
Beckons me inwards
A promise just for us

You, a goddess
On the brink of sensory annihilation
Me
A devotee
A wilful servant of your sensory
Purity
And my hands
Trembling like tender leaves
In a breath-like summer’s breeze
Brush your perfect skin
Baby-tender newness
With the guilt of nothing
But with the will of a hooker
Who wants to feel the win
Who wants the taste of sin
Who needs to feel her soul

Inside your mind
I find
Myself
Perfectly aligned
We slip into secrets
Skimming over whispers
Your face like a promise
With your bee-sting lips
Your breasts are so perfect
I say a prayer to taste them
To embrace them
I feel like I’m fucking an angel with wings
And fuck feels like the wrong word
For the purity of the goodness
I worship before me
Your aura so dazzling I cannot see
Heavenly
Iniquity free

Yet I’m yearning for a taste of jubilation
When you cum
Fingers slipping
Cries of lust
Love-bedecked caverns
Juices flow
Pleasure below
Honey
With a shudder
Of sunshine
Biting into flesh like a sweet nectarine
Exploring places unseen
Trying so hard
But can’t keep the mood clean

And the universe aligns
And we lose sense of time
And I feel you’re all mine
Your sweet lips part
To utter thanks
I place mine over
Then touch my lips to yours
So you can taste your sweetness
As we stay entwined
In each other’s
Souls
Two halves made whole.

© 2020 Sarah Drury

The Birds and the Bees

How do you have sex mum?
How are babies made?

Then I glance at my phone
And see my son has been asking our friend Google Home
And our Google friend is no holds barred
He says the penis goes inside the vagina
And I gaze at these robotic, grown up words
And wonder if it isn’t a little bit absurd
That when I was twelve I was getting my sex education
From wanton fumblings in the toilets
At the local park
Stinky fingers behind the bikesheds
And ‘you look at mine, I’ll look at yours’ beneath the blankets on my bed
From the slutty porno Playboy centre spread
from the hormonal, spotty schoolboys I’d mislead
from the x-rated porno prose that I’d misread
from the 18 rated movies which I’d be dead
if me mam found me putting such filth in my innocent young head

And Google Home hasn’t done a bad job
If you’re thirty with a mortgage
And missed your sex education classes at your grammar school
Although google seems to think that it’s only same sex relationships that are cool
And lesbians, gays, and every queer in the nation
Are taking a sexual copulation vacation
And who knows, one day there will be negative ramifications
if Google stays straight

I pride myself on being a progressive mum
I have been letting my son be himself since the very first days I wiped the poop from his bum.
And I’m eager to see him become a young man
There’s been no puritan technology ban
No degrading Wonder Woman in favour of a testosterone fueled Batman
No forcing him to be less Autistic yet no forcing him to be in the disabled clan
I’ve always taught to hold up his little Autistic head and scream ‘I can’.

So I ask him
Son, how are babies made?
“The penis goes into the vagina and the man ejects sperm”
And I have to smile at the ejects bit
As though the word ejaculation isn’t a big hit
And I wonder if the sperm would miss their target
If they would be all redundant in the baby making market
And maybe this way it could be a new contraceptive
Maybe the men could be a little bit deceptive
And maybe the women could remind them
About condoms and STD’s
Hey Google, maybe you could just
Add a little bit about popping a little condom cap
On artful todger’s tinkling tete
To prevent the global baby threat
And keep the nasty diseases
To be the property of the dirtbag whose teaser pleases.

My son got the nuts and bolts main bits right
And I praised him for his knowledgeable prowess
At twelve he would have wiped the sex ed floor with this progressive lioness
He can bandy around the word penis like a consultant gynaecologist
But still pisses all over the toilet floor
and I wonder if that’s a kid thing
or will I still be mopping up the pee when he’s twenty-six or more?

I know what comes next
And I hear him talking in whispers to his friends in the next room
Oh son, you’re only 12 but you’re growing up way too bloody soon
I don’t mind you asking Google as long as you always ask me
I will tell you the important little things that Google doesn’t choose to see
Like how girls might fancy girls and boys might fancy boys
And some might fancy both and some might just want relationships with sex toys
And the world is a spectrum and we don’t fit in relationship shaped boxes
And diversity is the wonderful thing that makes the sexual world spin on its unpredictable axis.

So, son
Come to me
I will tell you the story of the birds and the bees
I will tell you what you should know, what is real, not nonsense whispers polluting the summer breeze
I’m not embarrassed
Don’t you bleedin’ well be.

©2019 Sarah Drury