I am a child
And innocence
Innocence you owed me nothing.
When you held up your weapon.
Aimed
Straight
Into the heart of
My sinlessness
BANG!
Straight
into the heart of
My righteousness
BANG!
Straight
into the heart of
My guiltlessness
BANG!
Straight
into the heart of
My blamelessness.
BANG!
Straight into
MY HEART!
My heart bleeds
With the remorseful blood
Of my sins
My heart bleeds
Sins?
If it is a sin to be a victim
Then
I will perish
In the burning vaults of Hell
Although I am there
And I am burnt
And the devil had a kinder demeanor
Than the hallowed nuns and priests
Purveyors of misery
Since God gave them power
Over the voiceless innocents.
I will be defiled
At the hands of those
Who cup my sanguine little heart
In hands gnarled with the falsehood
Of celebrity faces
Parading their goodness
On the silver screen
Dipping toes into
In forbidden oceans
Possessing innocence
Like an evil spirit
Possesses a holy child.
Aim again at my head
BANG!
Digital technology
Leaves me for dead
See him, grooming so sweetly?
He asked me ‘How old?’
I told him ‘Old enough’
He told me
‘over 13’s not welcome’
‘and do you have any interested friends?’
The curse of Facebook
And Snapchat
And Whatsapp
And Instagram
As age is not a truth
And you’re only as old
As the filter on your selfie.
I am a child
And innocence
You owed me everything.
In a day that playing in the streets
Is a travesty
As hungry eyes
Sick with the affliction
Of deviant sexuality
Scrutinize the imagined suitability
Of a pure heart innocent
Cerebrally laid at the altar
Of an act so despicable
BANG!
I turn the weapon
I aim it at your twisted head
For all I despise your sickness
And the fact that
I cannot live in a world
Where I am safe
I am loved
And am not a victim
Of sexual perversion
I cannot kill you
Because you are a God
In this monopoly
Of this sick society
In which we so sadly
Live.
You live.
YOU live.
I die.
I
DIE!
BANG!
© Sarah Drury 2019
Sarah Drury 